Seven thunders roar






2014 m. rugsėjo 7 d., sekmadienis

Strandastolen




Shallow and steep,
interesting but bored,
green and dark,
glowing and extravagant,
sneaky and playful,
classy and elegant,
crazy but listening,
talking and repeating,
ongoing but waiting,
strong but still on track,
mysterious and melancholy,
full of life and challenging,
welcoming and cosy,
revealing and resistant,
confused but  always waiting for the sunrise which illuminates it with pride.

This is my mountain. This is me.

2014 m. balandžio 29 d., antradienis

One little fail

How did it come that I was ready and wanted to share myself and my freedom with another person but no one showed up?
But what if I was just asking them to share themselves and their freedom with me?
That's how it looks like for me now. I used to daydream spending their time with me, occupating their mind with my thoughts. But who am I to ask for this...     ?

You had better come and I will spend my time with you. Come and I will share it. I have enough. Even if I did not... Come and get a spit of a my sunlight and decide what you want to do with yours.





2014 m. kovo 7 d., penktadienis

Life of Nano-minimalist

So. As a public secret, I decided to become minimalist. And I am.
Came back to Norway a week ago, staying at friends parents having 9 000 kroners in my bank account.
Car doesn't work. Work is not until 17th of March. Need to find a plce to live.
These are only strict facts. But it's enough to call me nano-minimalist.

It's been so many ups and downs on this week. Wanna hear what has been happening the previous last days?.. Or maybe no one of you give a f*ck about it but it would be nice for me to sum everything up and read it later to my kids. So I'm going to put everything here while I haven't lost my memory.

Came back from Lithuania to Norway on Friday, 28 th of February, 2014. (I had a month break because there was no work to do at my work place)
The next morning the very first idea came up to my mind. I need to make an add saying that I am looking for a place to live. So I did. And highlighted the sentence that said I needed only one small room. After doing that I went to check ou the appartment near my work. I was willing to rent it with my colleague so it would have been cheaper for both of us. The owner Ali wanted 4900 kroners + electricity bills (approximately 1000 kroners a month) but my colleague needed to wait a month because he was renting another apartment at that time. Well, I could have lived there alone for that one month but it was too expensive for me. Remember how much I have on my bank account..? After checking that appartment me and few of my friends went to local annual event. On the way home my car broke down... It was the same problem as I was having before I left. Antifreeze was leaking. But when I was going up and down the mountains it went off faster than I expected, the tempreture of an engine raised almost to 120 degrees of celcius and the lamp of oil showed up. Okay.. Stopped immediately. There was much steam coming from the engine that day...
I took a smoke and called people to pick us up.
The next day we went there with extra antifreeze and somehow managed to reach home with my girl, Audi A4. But I was risking as hell, I was driving approximately 12 km with red oil lamp on. On the way home we stopped at gas station to buy more antifreeze so I could manage to go to mechanic at least to check what was actualy wrong. But sorry norwegians, I need to say that. You people suck at these kind of things. You don't know shit about cars... But didn't have a choice. It's my second car here. But I lost the first one because of my own fault. I ended up outside the road on the roof! :P What an experience. Anyways... Afer I bought some extra antifreeze I remembered the add I had made in the morning so we went to the local shopping center and put it there. Then we noticed a big car on the parking lot and my friend's dad recognised people sitting in it. So we went to them to have a chat. They were a young family of lithuanians that have just bought a house so they invited us for a cup of coffee. But I only drink tea. So I didn't go. Naah, of couse I did. It's free tea! The very first rule of minimalist is to sign up for everything that is for free.
We were talking, laughing... And it came that the man called Thomas knows a lot about cars and works at the center of used car parts. I asked if he could take a look at my vehicle and he did. He found a problem withing 5 minutes...
Later that day I got an answer for the add. Two american women were back to norway visiting their aunt who is a nice 80 years old lady. She had a big house all by herself and her relatives had an idea to rent the basement apartment so the old lady wouldn't feel lonely and would be safer if I lived  there in case of emergency and things like that. I couls also have helped her with cleaning and things. They asked from me only 2000 kroners for a month. So I came back home happy willing to get that appartment in the middle of a small city center that I live now.
On Monday I had my car fixed. But the lamp of oil was still on and the engine was making a small weird extra noise. Thom suggested to buy some better oil and change the oil filter.

The next day I got a text from the ''greanny's appartment'' that they want to see me one more time and make sure that granny Toruun agrees. So I came there again, talked for one more time and the granny seemed happy to see me there. So we started cleaning the basement, making some space at the garage when her daughter came to as and said 'I am very sorry... She's not ready... She panicked or something, she afraids of the fire that you may set and other things... I am terribly sorry, we really like you but she's old, also, many things are going on right now so she needs some rest...'
Ha!
Haha!
''Yes, no problems, it is what it is... I still have one option.''
Hahaha...

Later that day I went to Ali's and he had already changed his mind about the flat. He wanted to rent every room for 4000 kroners a month but electricity was included. But he also wanted a deposit for me to pay, at least for one month but hey... I couldn't afford it. So I was delaying saying yes.

But still needed fuel. The shop was in other city, one hour away. Going by bus would have been extremely expensive but there came my other friend who was going to Ålesund on Thursday anyways. So I suggested him some company.
In the morning I went to norwegain language course when my colleague called and said that Ali was asking him 3500 kroner a month for one room. We thought it was not fair even if it was 3500 kroners. That small room is worth no more than 2000... And he said that I would be stupid if I made a contract with that arabian guy for 4000 kroners. So was still delaying... And calculating if I would manage to pay him everything he wants.
After course Lambi took me to Ålesund. And it was a very good day. We were laughing, I even forgot about all the problems I had been struggling with lately. I bought oil, accesories for the kitchen...
In the evening the oil has been changed and the engine worked much better. But the lamp was still comming up sometimes. But I suggested it might have been a problem with oil pressure sensor. So Thom is going to get some used sensors and change them, then we will see what happens. But at least I can use my car again... That's a big relief because it's more than impossible to live here and go to work and stuff without a car...
Also, I wrote a message for Ali ''3500 kroners and I'm moving in tomorrow''. Then he answered that he didn't need to pay deposit (that was the main problem for me) but it's still 4000 kroners. I said okay. Well, what choice did I have? Then he said that we were going to talk tomorrow.

So tomorrow is today, the big Friday. I woke up happy, haven't feel that way for several days. Said thanks for the Universe and started packing a bit. No one called me. So I tried to call to Ali but he didn't answer. Called three more times after. Then I called for my other colleague, my very good friend Linda (the magic Linda) and asked her if she had any other kitchen stuff that she didn't use and asked for little help with translating because I thought I was going at Ali's and he doesn't speak english, only norwegian and I'm only a beginer at that language so it's a bit difficult to understand. She nodded on the phone and asked me to call her when I need her. Right after I hung up, I finally got a message from Ali saying that he's sorry and that he's already rented a flat for someone else...............................

And that's when I laughed insanely. Was that really happening? Yes, I still has his messages after one, after two hours... And still keeping it as a proof for myself that this have really happened. Then I sat in a car, went to the city center and took few smokes. Asked the Universe what she had prepared for me. There definately must be something, I just need more signs to know what to hope for.
I was getting along with the thought about living there, about sharing the flat with two more people, probably men... But I didn't care, I needed a place to live immediately bacause I have been stuck here far too long, my friend's parents are nice people but I cannot use them. It's wrong. I had already lived with them for 3 months before and they didn't ask any money from me... They helped me a lot, helped to find a job, helped to find a car and even lend some money when I needed. After these three months I moved to magic women Linda because she went to spend some weeks in Cape Verde islands with her boyfriend and I promised to take care of her dog. So I stayed there longer than few weeks. And she had no problems with it. Didn't ask for money neither. I could make another twice as big post writing about people I've met here and how they are returning me the hope in humanity... And about other people that I considered being my friends but apparently they don't care that much... Even if they know that I am spending darkest days in my life...

Thom is an amazing person who's trying to help as much as possible without waiting for any reward. He thinks that people has to help each other. And I love that attitude.
I have been helping others as much as I could and now I need help...

If I were minimalist, I had a small place to live and only few neccessary belongings. Now I call myself nano-minimalist. I don't have that much as minimalist has.

Here, look! A small diamond shines in the ashes. Go and picke it up!
Lol nope, no diamond for you today. What an optimist.
What will tomorrow bring me?


And few hours ago I opened a new envelope of my car's ensurance bill saying that I need to pay 7000 kroners until 20th of April.
And now I laughed even harder...

If I survive this... What a big score that would be, huh?

2014 m. sausio 2 d., ketvirtadienis

New year, belongings, spanish and geography

This life cannot be lived without marks. I want a lot to tell and a lot to experience. This wish comes to feelings and they come to emotions. Then emotions become actions and eventually it happens.
I want to be useful on Earth. I want to do a lot of things and see everything that is worth to be seen. I want to get rid of things I don't need. I want to have everything I need in one backpack. Can you imagine how much weight would fall off from your back? It would be much easier to manage everything. Only one backpack. Going wherever you want with all your stuff.
It's not difficult for me to move from one place to another because everything I have can easily be put in a car. And it's still too much...

Conclusion: Need to learn how to live with less things. In comparison with some people I have only few belongings. And it's still too much. GET RID OF THINGS I DON'T USE. And learn to use as less as possible.

I want to be useful and do things that would mean something or would help for someone. I can work in a campany and fill pockets for my boss. But not for a long time. I don't work only for money to myself. I want that energy I put on my work to go to the right place and would stay there for a good reason. And it does not matter how much I would earn.. Does not matter at all. I'm still rich. Rich of love. I love being in the mountains, looking at the Sun, meeting people and breathing fresh air. Does that cost anything? No! So why do I need lots of money again..? And put all of my energy to have a lot? But don't use it? That's the question I've been struggling on. But not anymore. I'm totally good.

Conclusion: Have a job you love doing. Work where you love doing that. Does not matter if salary is poor as long as it's enough to cover system's requirements and pay for some food. And for a roof if you really need to have one.

Another thing I've been on to lately is... Geography. I think I've finally found my thing. Wanna know more about processes that cannot be avoided. And science about the Earth seems so real and cannot be wrong because it can be easily proved. It's like getting to know your house better, knowing rooms you can go to and getting know it's habitants - your house mates.

Conclusion: Not really a conclusion, just consideration. Studying geography. Somewhere where it's warm and nice. Coldness me no likey.

And in the near future.. to learn spanish. After I'm done with norwegian...
Tusen takk for i dag, vi snakkes.. noen gang.

Oh yes and since it's a new year.. I think it's good to start it with that kind of thoughts. AMIRITE?